my new blog address

the server is in China so the Great(Fire)Wall system will not allow me to put any *sensitive* word there. but it is easier for my friends there to visit. I almost lost my interest in politics anyway...

as a matter of fact, i have stopped updating it for several months too. The reason is simply self-doubt.

I "rediscovered" my epsilons blog yesterday when i was going through my old documents...these thoughts of mine... a lot of them seem so distant now, but they still resonate a little bit somehow like shaking hand with an old friend; and still they brought back memories like one recalls listening to the ocean waves in the night... I had a dream about where I grew up as a kid few days ago-- those greens in the winter morning mist, and the views of mountains in the western sky after a summer rain.

Time is not going to erase everything[*]...and will we find a map of human hearts?

(*) as long as google is doing regular backups...

Some word you said in various ocassions, which I always think of when I walk alone to the campus town in the evening. They remind me of you that much.

I know she's in trouble. There are English majors everywhere.

History is useful. I will hire a historian if I had a company.

I know nothing about art.

She is always that shy little girl from a little village.

I don't know about love.

We should stop.

This is the saddest tree I'v ever seen.

They are all opinions, just waste of time.

Theoretical Astrophysicist~~

Why don't you go to make a lot of money?

I don't like them. They are all the same here.

You should be nicer to D.

I am surprised that Richard asked me to be his best man.

That place reminded me how I grew up.

I think you are just jealous.

Professional dancers perform the same routine everyday. How can you be bored after only a few performances?

You like shopping too.

They all owe a lot to their own country. I onece told my dad that and he was very upset.

I don't know too.

Make some friends. (after I leave)

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I talked to my best friend in college about you. She is still such an innocent girl... She wants to meet you and I know you two will like each other.

But you are all so far away from me.

Aki left today.

近来心情不稳，觉得应该写点什么，也正好抓一把猴子的尾巴。去了东部一趟，见到了这么多的人。方正温良如小敢，恩爱如didibaba夫妇。也在或大或小的饭桌旁，午夜的车座上，和房间里温柔的灯下，不动声色的，缓缓地说了很多中文。

年末的纽约，人头攒动的Guggenheim里面，拥抱了苍白的music，而时光也即刻倒流，她就在那个园子里，神态眉眼依旧。

身边依着粉色娇妻的tangerine，谈着鸟不生蛋地方的offer和三教里曾经的摇滚。

杨驴和他老婆，在我们桌前唱着过于难听的歌曲，尾音故意拖着老长－－他还是那个样子吧，祝他傻人有傻福。

2004年的最后一天，坐在流水搬的小馆里，听着我正直的徒弟对那个遥远国度的感叹，在心里赞叹他身边女友眼里流出的纯净温和。

还有元旦，从咖啡馆出来，穿过马路看着对面的小朋友，抬头看见红衣的fool就站在那个下午的阳光里，宁静温柔。

亚静JJ和toetoe这一对碧人。每次看到你们，我就想，还能说什么好呢。

在small world里，我竟然答不上 那么多人的名字。 “Super你都忘了！”你们笑我。 呵呵， 怎么会呢，他们和你的样子。。。我记性这么好的人。 回头看去，还有那么多描
绘不出的温柔与残忍。

原来我生命里还藏有这许多的联系，这么多的过去以往，也还有这么多的可能性。

我知道为什么会有这许多不安，因为对于所谓的歧途，我们都还不明白；害怕，而心存敬畏。

Australian Chamber Orchestra
Apr 24, 2004
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Some traditional Hungarian folk songs performed by Dawn Upshaw, really refreshing! Some Cantatas of Bach- I have to say I hate Bach sometimes...

Here comes this great work, String Quartet No.2, Op.56 by Karol Szymanowski. The 2nd movement is very much like Bartok's work and you can smell the folk blood in it. This is perhaps the best chamber orchestra in the world, excact, balanced, but I guess Tognetti still have to work hard to stretch his enthusiam out to all orchestra. The 2nd encore is great, and, the only one expressing intimacy among musicians tonight.

A funny thing is, an old lady tried to give me some tip after the show...

How Rankings Rate [Times OP-ED]. Funny articles.

Got a cd of Karan Casey, such a Celtic music surprise! It brings some sunshine in the morning...

Mark Morris Dance Group
Apr. 8th, 2004 @Krannert
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A Spell
music: madrigals by John Wison

All FOurs
music: Bartok No. 4

Serenade
music: serenade for Guitar by Lou Harrison
dancer: Mark Morris

V
music: Schumann Piano Quintet
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How brave for Mark Morris to choose Bartok No.4! Even a string quartet have to try very hard to handle this piece! He had the same experience as me, deeply moved by the great Takács Quartet and their Hugarian blood, I still remember that concert. This Serenade is brilliant! Mark Morris in a simple Japanese-inspired costum, and just with a guitar and percussion! How could a fat man express such diversity in just one set and grasp the essense of such different cultures like mid-eastern, japan and carribean? Only a genius can do this.... He forgot he has been doing the V in the successive 3 years here. Generally, better than last year.. =) Actually I think he really fits my style, strict ballet technique combined with the modern dance spirit, and yes, dance to the great music and forget about the world.